Pen and Emotions

I been staring at this paper
Trying to write anything,
Trying so hard to not let anyone down
But nothing is what it used to be.

Once there was a time
Writing was a pen to emotions in my heart and mind,
Feelings not known to anyone
Kept and buried deep inside.

What can i write
When i don't feel the same anymore,
Every bit of the old me seems to have disappeared
And I have no feelings to share or show.

Love were expressed and imaginative stories were made
To few it were wonderful while for others it were fine,
I penned down even the last drop which I could not say
My emotions together with an essence of rhyme.

I do not know why I cannot fill this blank paper
May it be because I am not the same anymore,
Even while writing this I try and wonder
How can emptiness be showed ?

With this I bid farewell to this use of pen and paper
With this I accept the truth,
It is pointless to pick up a pen and express never
It was a phase like a grass covered with a dew.

I am sorry to disappoint
I tried real hard,
Consider this the end of a phase
Like a temporary beating of a dead heart

For Them

Watch their hands lie on the dry ground
Drier than the desert,
Lips trying to tell their story but cannot make a sound
life can't be given with just promises and words.

Look in their eyes and picture what they feel
Because feeling like that is something unreal for you,
For few hours try and live their lives
You cannot imagine the pain and agony in their shoes.

Look at that mother trying feed her little ones
Though her tongue hasn't tasted anything in days,
Yet she smiles and gives her children pieces of crumbs
Not thinking of even taking a bite of that bread.

Their tears have dried up
They have not even sadness to spill,
Not just from clothes and shelter
They have been dried off from their faith and will.

If you have a candle light it up for them
If you got a voice you better shout out to them,
Re-ignite the faith and hope
and do not stop till you hit the melodious heart warming note.

Sometimes it will be easy
sometimes it's going to be hard,
Give them reasons to breathe freely
Lets build back their world which has been torn apart.

Everyone looks for a reason to live
some while looks for reason to love ,
They are in need to believe
that there is more to life than what they are living of.
If you still feel your troubles are bigger
and you are the more unfortunate one,
Still i hope praying once in a day for them
won't add up to your problems,
That little effort will make you to million to one.

Dear Future Wife.

Do not worry, i am on my way to steal you from all of them.
If you are sad at the moment, I promise when you are with me you will never ever feel the same. If you are little unwell and no one is able to recognize that, i promise i will be there to give you medicine and cover you with a blanket and lay right beside you holding you in my arms to make you feel the warmth you need.
I do not care if you are sick, i WILL kiss you.You don't need to worry about cooking much because i will often fix us a meal.
I will leave anything that comes in between us. Even if its my job, because such things come and go, but for you i have been waiting for a real long time. So long to keep you smiling and laughing.I know all of these will make you cry when i die but one thing is for sure i will be happy knowing you loved me the same.I cannot promise that i can be the PRINCE charming you always imagined but i will definitely do things for you which even a girl wanting a fairytale cannot imagine.
I do not care what your past is, how many guys you have
been with.But i promise i will be the one which you have been wanting, may it ask to change me.
I promise to be a great dad. It doesn't matter if i fill my stomach or not i promise yours will never go empty.I do not care if i wear the best clothes but i promise i will give you the best of what i can.
I promise to hold your feet and gently fit the shoes you desire even if i wear nothing.I promise you this, wherever you are, whatever you think of love, it is not enough compared to the amount of love i will give you.I will be your one and you will be mine forever till my last breathe.

Angel

Waiting for that one change
which will make everything alright,
the start of the day would be just more than just okay
Filling this burning hole in broad daylight.

People warning about other people
tired of wars and miseries,
It's like being a slave to a needle
Feels like it's been forever since i been on my knees.

So tired of the disappointing life
of solving the bewildered puzzles
Someone always holds a knife with their well hid lies
Around every corner awaits new troubles.

The pictures beside me in the their frames
comes with such bitter memories,
Had enough of the change
Just need a simple release.

Tonight with an angel
will fly far away from here, 
Those wings will be the shelter to light and rain
away from this endlessness which i feel.

Let me be empty tonight
Hold my hand O Angel fly me away from here,
Let me be a free kite
i will sing a song so please take it from my lips to God's ears.

In this madness let me be free,
away from this sadness
i don't want it perfect but as simple as it could be.

In this dark room with a storm raging in my head
i need a little comfort,
Let your arms be my bed
These stars and nights are not enough.

And as i lie down and close my eyes
i wish you to pull me away from this shipwreck,
Cleared my head with questions like Why
just listening to the gentle drops of rain,
Don't be late because i am too tired
Free me from these chains
Take me far away O angel
from this world of miseries and pain.

More than Loved

When you pass down the lane
They all turn around and look at you the same
Watching the beautiful sunlight shimmer through you hair
And I can not blame them

You are like a gentle flower that flows with the wind
I can see how the breeze loves to accompany you
and the bright sun shines and tries to make a shadow of yours like never before seen.

The way you move your eyes
A sweet pain passes through my heart,
Every time your feet touches the ground
I can feel the ground smiling in a disguise perfected to art

You are not something ordinary
nor are you angel-like,
Calling you an angel would be lie
because you are something more than just a heavenly delight.

Your eyes are deeper than any ocean,
Yet the reflection of skies can be clearly seen
I never believed in miracles
but now i have faith in the things unseen.

The small directions your hair sways
my heart seems to dance that way,
Whenever you pass by
the air fills up with a mesmerizing scent
It's like letters from heaven which were never sent.

I do not like them,
The ones who gets to be part of you everyday,
From the sun, to wind, to the rain touching your face.
You are on the moon while i stand on earth
if you come just a little close
I will show you what you are worth.

When the sun gets too bright to bear
I will gently come close to you
and blow some cool air,
When the rain is falling too hard
I will pull you under a shelter,
A lot of men will take you under their umbrella
but I will be the one to stand with you in the rain.
I cannot move the ground when it gets hard on your feet,
But i will be the one to stay up all night to take care of 'em
and gently kiss you on the forehead before you go to sleep.
I cannot be there in your bad dreams
but i will certainly be beside when you have one,
Because now i know what love actually does,
and all i know now is to make you feel more than loved.

I Will ( Forever And Always )

Here we are
in this secret place
The world seems so far away
Wrapped around in love's warm embrace.

Holding your hand and i am trying to look at you 
But my eyes just don't seem to meet yours ,
Because i find it amazingly beautiful

The clear moonlight from the gray skies
are reflecting in your eyes,
Your hair shimmers gently with wind
You are driving me so wild.

I am trying to be strong
Thinking of not meeting those soft lips
Don't get me wrong
Just want to seal my love with one kiss.

You are the picture perfect girl
The one of whom i thought of every night,
I cannot buy you diamonds and pearls
But being with you just feels so right.

I want to give you everything you ever wanted
I promise you will wake up everyday with a rose on your bed
I will whisper all that you need to hear
I will do things for you no one ever has done or said.

Will carry you to bed every night
Lie with you down beside till you close your eyes,
Wrap you in my arms
and turn off the lights.

Even when we grow old
i will wake you up with a kiss every sunrise,
Whenever you feel cold
I will cover you with a blanket every night.

We will dance in rain and snow
Will live every moment
Like there is no tomorrow.

I will never take you for granted
Will love you in every little way you wanted
Never let a tear fall from your face
Will be right next to you forever and always.

I will let the world know that you are the prettiest thing i have ever seen
And YOU are My Queen.

War

How many tears will fall on the ground ?
From the silent eyes on the left charcoal and sulfur,
Gently blood stumbles from the wound down
Bullets and bodies can't seem get enough of one another.

The sounds of bullets raging out to other side
Taking down a father, brother, a friend,
The soldier lying down in his blood
with also million thoughts in his mind can't hear anything.

A gray cloud of dust has taken over the skies
Wherever he turns his eyes
He watches hatred and death,
His breath keeps gulping out as it's begging to be free
He thinks is this what he will remember as he draws his last breathe ?

His innocent childhood friend standing by him
Too busy taking others lives,
As he looks at the mud covering his boots
He remembers once it was something they played with and he smiles.

Suddenly from between the noise and echo
something drops and a shrill of silence can be heard
Followed with voices of cries and despair
and end of lives uttering incomplete words.

As his breathe gets dimmer with other lives
he sees his child
how he hugged him when he left home and tears he cried,
How he came running as the soldier walked out the door
He grabbed his fathers legs saying "daddy please don't go".

The night before he left flashes
How he held on to her the whole night,
Whispering all the love he could in her ears
Because somewhere they both knew it was the last time.

All the while brothers around him kept falling
but he didn't see the war,
He saw what he wanted to see
Not the bombs but a dream worth dying for.

He died with his eyes wide open
Now being just a worthless thing for them,
Packing his body in a box and they send him home
Stealing someone's family of their happiness and smile Again.

Once war starts and millions fall
they promise this would be the last
but then the blood shed in some way goes on,
This world is Hell-bent and heaven bound.
Thousands of die everyday over materials of this world
Intentions and motives not making sense and really unclear.
They want to live like immortals so they waste others lives
Too desperate to run from their wrong actions and deeds
Thinking the materials would keep em free from guilt at night.