An ordinary man

Six years has passed by
Walked million miles away from you
Traveled through so many roads
Yet i feel standing closer to you.

What is this magic you have cast upon me ?
No distance seems too far
In my travels i have met so many
Yet my compass guides me to where you are.

This heart refuses any other
No matter how much the universe says,
You are the only to have been to all my corners
And it just doesn't seem to settle for anyone else.

I remember your happiness
For the surprise i pulled,
You received so much more from others
Even today you don't know the effort it took.

If reality met the distance of you in my heart,
You'd be in my arms,
Your head buried in my chest
Feeling a burning love and warmth.

I have found a key to be in heaven
Which is waking up next you,
Your hair all messed on my pillow
Loving every bit of you.
Your breath falling on my hand
as i move it across your face
To be sure heaven is real
Or is it just one of God's game

Not a day would go by
Where i wouldn't say those three words,
If it ever happens so,
Know that i am no more.

Nothing of this is in vain
After years of struggle and setbacks
You're that inspiration to have made me pick up my pen.
I shall write about the world and all i can
Every drop of ink in me will have the world believing,
That an extraordinary woman was loved extraordinarily by an ORDINARY man.

 

Weapons

Broken, lying on the ground
With bruises from the war,
Dreaming of the touch of water at your shore.
Breathing with a passion lost
and a pounding heart giving in,
I know IT comes as sweat beams down my skin.

The dust bids farewell
When my breath pours down on it
There is none but your name on my lips
Eyes embracing darkness
Like a lost love found
The cost of freedom seems to exist under the ground.

As the air whispers words in my ears
Soul stuck in my throat
I recognize those lines and surrounds me a shield of hope.
I hold on in desperation
To hear what you have to say more,
Your words ignites a line
A line that says i myself am a cure.

I get up
from my knees
As some strength i summon,
I see your guardians surrounding,saying
And what is the life of this world except the enjoyment of delusion. (3:185)

This world is a war
With words as guns and grenades
Filled with endless misery and heartache.
In between from the dark smoke
Your words guides me
To take the hand of every fallen and needy.
And I rise up
With more than just strength,
I say to your angels,
"I shall do more because to some it still doesn't make any sense"

As they leave
they light up the sky,
Let us make sure
To help the lost get back their lives.
There is more to us than ourselves
A little kindness and love our weapons
To help them escape their hells.

I

Night light in darkness
The air flowing through your hair
My reason of breathlessness
Allow me to love you of my share

Glance me with your eyes
Share in me as your thoughts
Indulge me as your addiction
Like my soul has been bought

We look at the cherry sky
While lying beneath its story
You see something else
While I, our glory.

Many stories of love
Sung and lost
I don't intend on preserving ours
Because love such ours are made
To be lived across.

Turn around to me
Let me gaze in your eyes
There lives someone's dream
There lives 'I'.

Her life and my soul

A step through the broken front door
into my room of heaven,
Every step away feels a distant shore
Hours seem to in arms of seconds.

If these dull dented walls could talk
They would tell your story,
How you ended up in a place like this
a place miserable with suffering and no glory.

I make way towards the stairs
their planks could crunch down with my cold feet
yet i am thankful to them
for taking me somewhere where i was complete

As i walk towards you i remember,
Remember your bright eyes in darkness of night,
Among the crowd of women selling their pride for money
I walked towards you and asked you to tell me your story ?

You looked at me with so much pain and smiled
Held my hand and brought me here,
You sat with me on bed and kept looking at me through the night
It was an amazing intoxicating atmosphere.

I am almost there
but the stairs seem to bend quite more,
Why is it trying to stop me ?
and why is there blood and glasses shattered on floor.

A voice echoes my name from behind
I turn around and see a woman,
She nods saying everything i didn't want to hear
She says there was a "madman".

I had no air to breathe suddenly
and i didn't want to cry
Didn't want to stench the happiness of her place with sadness
I turned around and kept walking towards you to say goodbye

I saw how he held her by hair and dragged her
From stairs to her room breaking her bangles,
All the while she looked at me and smiled
She was still in my sandcastle.

I walked into the shattered room
Nothing was the same to remember,
Blood quenched on bed where we lay together all night
Once it was warm with us in coldness of december.
 
I see her lying on the floor
and i see how he there took my life away from me
The broken vase beside you and your scars shouted
how you struggled to save me.

There was nothing left for me there
I stood outside the brothel
While they take you away in front of me
Blood on my hands and a very cold heart,
Tears iced in my eyes of your every scar

Who said love is when it stays with you all your life
Our story isn't incomplete nor our love
As i watch my world go by
I refuse say goodbye.

Stirs

My voice lost in someones happiness
Under warm sunlight i have no shadow,
I welcome the rose light at dawn
Everyday with pain agony and sorrow.

I fail everyday in making her happy
to her my small world's light is rainfall
I have given up everything i could gladly
Everything that defined me i parted from all.

When everything is gone
I am giving up bits of me slowly
For her sake i am barely holding on
Soon i will burn into ashes and just be a story
I even doubt that i'll last that long.

With every word from her lips
Wears out a little bit of my soul
Like in autumn the leaves from branches
and she always craves for more.

At once she says she's happy
another instant i am cursed,
Her use of words are so devastating
It's like whatever good i have done is reversed.

I now doubt my actions
Fear is now my closest friend,
because she doesn't like any emotion
Which doesn't starts and finishes at her end.

The truth is i cannot make her happy
I have given her everything i got
From promises to leave my birth existence
Everything for which i once fought.

So exhausted,
With her every word my faults are known
I do not know how to get rid of them
they are involuntary and not in my control.

I do not wish for death
Because somewhere i care for people beyond her
Which is something she cannot bear
Then is it death who stirs ?

Dormant

When do you plan to start again ?
You legs seem to not to move,
Yet you try to walk on broken glass
You try so hard yet you have nothing left to prove.

The rain pouring outside your window
You watched it fall drop by drop,
Now they are just some sound
Just like trying to crawl after you learned to walk.

You have been dormant long enough
Take a good look around,
Their souls eagerly wait
To feel and hear your imagination and its sound.

Show the colours and pictures in your head
Wrap them in your words like a warm winter blanket,
Keep your words simple like you always have
So that it even unfolds the mind of less fortunate.

You lack inspiration and emotion
so write about how it feels to be this,
it never has been penned to impress people
for you it is to express what your mind perceives .

It is time to try and get it all back
or just make a fresh start,
Love and pain is both in the air
and there's nothing in the world like that.

Bhai.

I don't know what i will do now
Now that you are gone,
This house feels so alone
How will i keep my mother strong ?

She loves you in such countless ways
Kept you away from any harm,
Treated you like her little baby
Even when you were all grown.

We fought so much
So much wrong things i said to you,
I don't know why i am not brave enough
To bow my head down and apologize right to you.

Please don't feel i won't miss you
because i already am,
Don't trust my expressions
because my tears are blocking my imagination.

I can't stop crying
thinking how am i going to survive without you
Those stupid fights
And those little things i brought just to fix things through.

Who is going to fix my computer,
Bhai ?
I will have no one to call to,
Who will understand my dreams
and make ammi abbu understand to

Ammi is going to miss you so much
I can't be her favorite,
I can't be what you are to her
and things you said to make her day.

Words can't explain how empty this house is
Who is going to complain about ammi's food ?
But you will still have it
When mom said "aao apne haat se khila du".

I know you are out there
To fulfill your dreams
And to fulfill mine,
Believe in yourself
because i am telling you
You're God's one amazing design.

I will try my best to keep ammi and abbu happy
But i won't be able to do what you did,
There is a reason they looked after you so much
Because you have a spectacular and magnificent gift.

Stay strong
and believe,
If someone cause you problem
I will come right down there and break his teeth.
You can count on me now
i will try my best

You have our duas
Please STAY SAFE.